true LOve that hurt me so much

lonely days..full of wound...walking alone through the graveyard of sweets memory....looking forward but lack of courage to look backward.. sweet memories need to bury... lost but not gain..hope but not going to come true..every thing is dead.. soaring for the pain... hide it from every one.. without the key the door will never open...i have swirl into the darkness...only the key can unlock my pathway...i lost the key and its never can be found..i have done all i need to do...but there is no light can guide me walk out of this sad place..tears..depress..disappointed..hurt...all have occupied my nerve system...fully occupied...alone standing on the big field...all i heard was your voice...all i saw was your face...i`m going to walk away and yet i dun hear you say:Pls, baby dun go...this all i get in the end... i`m going to face it alone... im juz like a worrior who losses his mate his pal his partner in the middle of the war...maybe tis is my fate...i have never feel regret for wad im done...i never feel angry or hatred when u leave me again and again...because tis is so called TRUE LOVE..love that make me accept wad ever you did to me..love make me forgive wad ever you did to me..love make me grow stronger and the same time it weaken me....now i have nothing left but hope...hope that so naive and maynot come true...i will fight alone with my hope...eventhought i knew the hope are going to vanish someday......juz like everyone of us knew tat we r going to die some day....all of us are trying to live perfectly before we lose our live...same way i`m going to fight till the very end no matter the hope are going to come true or not..tis is wad i can do for you...